my hard cold facts of being a solo worker in nsw

my demise began at newtown where i ran a buissness from a penthouse apartment lisa stanley was working from me and this is where i met mrs wilson im sure mrs wilson forgot to tell the nsw police service that she knew lisa stanley because they were both drug addickts i met brin around this time 96 and formed a relationship with him and hed allways go on about getting aids he didnt know it but he was mentally abusing me like he was telling me something i didnt know this is when the big ripp off took place i eventually moved to mosman brin allways made me feel inadequate so i started dieting so i could look just the way he wanted me to i went to china town and a chinese herbalist gave me royal jelly ginsing vials to promote weight loss i met fiona there and trained her as a receptionist i treated everybody so well i never understood why they would wanna steal from me everday at mosman something would go missing brian my ex partner approached me when i first moved to mosman to house 1 of his asian women but i declined 1 day during the day was in his car infront of my unit block unbeknown to me he should have been at his surgerey my friend bill had been visiting  and they had an argument out the front the next thing i knew my car was spray painted with the words aids whore and a vicacous letter was left under my door it was sooner aproaching chritsmas i went chritsmas shopping for my children to make sure they had a lovely christmas i spent over 4000 dollars in gifts christmas eve afternoon my brother stole all the gifts and took them back for refunds and i madly ran round with the funds i had left to try and get some presents i didnt get very much 4pm in the arfternoon my son scott he never forgot that christmas and kept saying to me why doesnt santa like me then i moved to surry hills mosman left a sour taste in my mouth. it was buiissnes as usual 1 afternoon brin was standing out the front and and he said to a client shell like you you have nice aftershave on during this time avaram savos approached me and asked me to give angela a job who was involved the robbery at edgeware road i didnt want to but i did because of him i found out later she was using drugs the whole time these women were working for me they were conspiring behind my back. during this time i rented a house from my mother and she just got up and took off to melbourne cause it suited her and left 2 of the children with me 2 houses to pay rent for both in my name and i had to find someone to look after my children im good but im not that good i could only be in 1 place at 1 time it just became all too much so  i went to melbourne and took the kids there eventually i went back to sydney and moved to dangar place mrs wilson worked there for a while this is where i started to become unstable i developed anerexia novsa i split up with brin during this time with no exp;lanation if id done something it would have been ok my son and my brother caught him looking through my doors previously to this brin and i had been a witness to the black market getaway car murder a detective sullaven came to interview me there and it was obvious to him i was unstable so the question i had is why didnt detective sullaven call in a psyc team to acess me ill give you the anwser they didnt give a shit not long after this i had a really bad feeling allmost chilling i ahd a receptionist working for me named kim who was from cans this chick was so shifty she told me she had a biker staying with her and all of a sudden i had all of these bikers that were coming to see me which wernt all my normal clientel i have allways had an a list eastern suburbs clientel. my brother was allways runninbg round the cross doing drugs in my early 20s i had a relationship with a guy known as john walsh aka john boy at the time he was selling drugs from the book shop at porkys in the cross the manageress name was georgie. 1 day i was looking for graeme john boy had sold graeme a dirty deal and we ended up in a screaming match in front of the club and i raced up to st vincents hospitial graeme had oded later i went back to see john boy and said to him how dare you sell my brother drugs my whole life ive been picking him up off the ground paying his drug debts clothing him picking him up wqhen he ods but the real storey when graeme was doing check fraud to the tune of 253000 dolars and he took my son to the cross and promised to buy him a pair of reeboks my son was 10 years of age and watched graeme score and inject drugs and was anybody ever worried about his safety i rang all and sundry trying to get some assistance now lets talk about the rights of the child, my legal rights as a child my childrens legal rights to live in a happy safe home enviroment with no exposure to drugs it was my brother that told my children that i work in the sex industry to saboatage my relatioship with them he got my eldest 2 sons on to canabis deliberitly to destroy them drug dealers in my opinion are the vermin of society nobody ever asked me why i dont like drugs drugs have claimed some very close people in my life. after danagr place i moved to lawrence st in alexandria it was business as usual i had a lady called kim and another lady called betty working as a recptionist for me but all they were was back stabbing cows i worked day and night to keep everybody happy and i went to a psycic called cliff from the light house at balkum hills whom i had seen when i was much younger i knew him quite well and he said to me i was clinically depressed i should  have been perfectly happy by other sex workers standards i had the abilty to turn a buisness into gold. i lived in a beauitful apartment lovely furniture brand spanking new sports car but i felt like my heart was dragging along the floor  my mother was in melbourne with my children. theo had just brought a brand new property at 161 kangaroo pt kangaroo pt in sydney with the proceeds of my sweating tears i was recomended to go see a lady judith collins of earth keepers healing sancuarty she was a spirtual healer i was under the belieth that someone somehow could take away my pain and deep seeded greif on the way back from seeing judith collins i had 1 word going round and round in my head i couldnt make it go away and the word was aids it wouldnt stop i had to live like this day and night how do you go and tell a doctor this sort of stuffi ahd an argument recently with the pa hospitial in brisbane they put on the report that i was a sex worker and i said to them that is my choice if i choose to disclose that information to a medical perfessional and when i used to go to a doctor i never used to tell them that for 1 reason they sit there and look at you and look doiwn at you and treat you with contempt and your the scum of the earth and they also put on it that my children belong to 4 diffrent fathers which isnt true and the day in was being discharged they wrote on it i obsconded which infact i was there with my partner and we both said to the staff we were going outside for a ciggarete and the doctor said to both of us at the time when we had a look at the report he would remove that but he blatenly lied to my face i detest liers and this is not the last hes heard of it drs should check there facts black and white before they put it on a medical report i was treated like a complete scumbag at the pa hospitial. during the time at lawuarence st i kept working because every one expected me too and this 1 word kept going round and round in my head obviously this was the begining of my illness and you know who i blame that scumbag theo 1 day i went to have my hair done at a hair dressers at the marrickville metro i had a spiral perm that night half of the perm on 1 side of my head fell out obviously this was due to the poor phsyical state i was in. then 1 day it was all too much i couldnt even look i couldnt even look anyone in the eye and have a conversation with them so i jumped in my car i left everything behind and i drove to my mothers in melbourne. bill my friend went there the next day and he found these receptionist laughing and ridicualling me behind my back i was a big joke they were throwing my furniture around throwing my cushions around destroying my apartment taking whatever they wanted he was devastated even mortified still to this day hes never recoverd from it. after this i became a recluse i stayed with my mother in melbourne i went to centerlink and got 1 unemployment cheque and then i never responded to any of their letters because i couldnt leave the house. i tried working in a few establishments they main course blue crystal and eventually i went to ultimate massage in hawthorn road hawthorn in victoria the  sex industry is a lot more civilised i would go work a couple of hours get a few dollars and take off nobody ever took me to the hospitial longs i was earning money to give to them it was cool. norm was the nicest man he was a older man and used to give me a cupp of coffee and a piece of cake when i arrived and i just told him sometimes i just get overwhelmed with an attack of nerves and i just have to get up and go after this i went back to sydney i got a place at marickville my mother had moved to warnabool thats where my mothers relatives lived i started working privatley again and it was good shely came back to work with me i had started to recover but i was still very the recluse i only ventured out in the company of other people really i brought a pomerainian pet and i became very attatched to himand this is where the drama with asians came into it one day they turned up on my doorstep and threw a shoe in my face i recently had my nose done and i put my arm up to protect it they were yelling obsenitys at me so i had a bipolar spike and called her a asian mole the other 1 came up and got in my face and i pushed her away to protect my self and she fell down 2 steps and bruised her arm my son could hear my dog crying in my backyard a few days later shelly brought somebody elses pomerainen to me i insisted she took it back i said to her this dog is apart of somebodys family the next thing i know this aggresive police woman came to the front door and asked for a blond woman my mother and brother were there and she reafed me out the door by my arm and i went to the police station and she charged me with assualt this asian woman also forgot to tell the police here children were selling drugs and they broke into my house while i was at the police staion my property was damaged but did they care about that no eventually i contacted a lawyer called george hovan he represented me i had previously seen him as a client but i didnt remember that at the time and he failed to remind me of that and he told me he had previously had a sexual encounter with this police woman obviously when i was at the police station i was displaying mental health sypmtoms no phyc assesment was ordered or report in the court room on the day of the hearing i was still in recovery and once again i had this word going round and round in my head i was sitting in the back of the court room reciting the lords prayer to myself i knew i was screwed i was becoming agatated my brother never turned up to give evidence because he was using herion in the cross the magistrate asked me what i thought they were going to do with my dog and i think i may have said something along the lines chop it up and put it in their chop suey im not really a racist my own son happens to to be urasian outside the court room george hovan said to me is it nickila or the greek beauty and i walked off and i was so pissed off i thought to my self what an asshole what i should have said to the magistrate if i had of assualted this girl she would have been black and blue everytime i tried to recover i had someone to beat me down  with a stick.